[ he probably could've done with drinks for these conversations, but the addition of alcohol to something like this? probably not the smartest idea.
he tilts his head back a little. ]
Darling, I didn't lure people back to his mansion with promises of good conversation. [ the rest he doesn't want to talk about, even with gentle prodding. the people he lured were not always kind. nor was cazador. ] But "put off" is a strong phrase. It was more a realisation I was still willing to grit my teeth and do something I didn't want long after I was out from under his thumb, somewhere he couldn't hurt me.
[ that realisation that something went so deep that even though he was "free", he was still dangling himself from cazador's puppet strings, moving the threads with his own hands where his old master could not. ]
cw: some assault references
he tilts his head back a little. ]
Darling, I didn't lure people back to his mansion with promises of good conversation. [ the rest he doesn't want to talk about, even with gentle prodding. the people he lured were not always kind. nor was cazador. ] But "put off" is a strong phrase. It was more a realisation I was still willing to grit my teeth and do something I didn't want long after I was out from under his thumb, somewhere he couldn't hurt me.
[ that realisation that something went so deep that even though he was "free", he was still dangling himself from cazador's puppet strings, moving the threads with his own hands where his old master could not. ]