[stares at how many mini bottles of vodka she goes through in episode one alone, YEAH PROBABLY NOT]
...Makes sense. [The methods. She hadn't given a terrible amount of thought to the mechanics of Cazador's sacrificial coven. There's been too much fuckery in every direction. But following the logic, if Astarion had to play manservant and fetch dog alike, what better way to draw in unsuspecting souls? It's the age old vampire lure.
It's the same bait she used to keep the heat off her. Better to take a little humiliation than to end up a real target. Like Faye Murray. Like so many other girls before or since her. Being different or standing just close enough next to it, both crimes punishable by improvised methods, by anyone who cares to mete out punishment.]
I think...once? Maybe twice in the last ten years, I've fucked someone with feeling. Not just to dodge something worse. [Facing a void. Facing violence. Facing judgment. Most matters with men can be easy out-manoeuvred if you opened wide.] It gets to be a habit.
I don't much anymore. Some guys put up with you keeping your clothes on for it. Others not so much.
[Her scars have spooked some men. She's careful. There are those intrigued by them, and it's those men she fears the most.]
cw: assualt references, self harm, alcholism references
...Makes sense. [The methods. She hadn't given a terrible amount of thought to the mechanics of Cazador's sacrificial coven. There's been too much fuckery in every direction. But following the logic, if Astarion had to play manservant and fetch dog alike, what better way to draw in unsuspecting souls? It's the age old vampire lure.
It's the same bait she used to keep the heat off her. Better to take a little humiliation than to end up a real target. Like Faye Murray. Like so many other girls before or since her. Being different or standing just close enough next to it, both crimes punishable by improvised methods, by anyone who cares to mete out punishment.]
I think...once? Maybe twice in the last ten years, I've fucked someone with feeling. Not just to dodge something worse. [Facing a void. Facing violence. Facing judgment. Most matters with men can be easy out-manoeuvred if you opened wide.] It gets to be a habit.
I don't much anymore. Some guys put up with you keeping your clothes on for it. Others not so much.
[Her scars have spooked some men. She's careful. There are those intrigued by them, and it's those men she fears the most.]