scrapdraught

[he's sitting on one of the benches near the pyre, shedding glitter and staring at his hands. he'll look up once he senses Camille though,]

Hey. Did you investigate this morning?

[oh, god. This is going to be rough.

Camille nods, grim.]

At the camp. [She purses her lips. Then steps forward, taking a seat at his side and putting a hand to his shoulder.] I'm sorry. We wanted to get his body. He was...a bear dragged him off.

[The absurdity only makes it all the more horrible. Kanda deserves better.]

[his expression is devoid of emotion -- or at least it was? the corners of his mouth quirk up at the absurdity of it all, and there's a sheen in his eyes that looks a little wild,

but he blinks it back, or at least he tries to -- a bubble of something close to a laugh escaping from him,]

Well, it's not the first time I've had to fight a bear.

Lavi.

[It breaks her heart. Really. She rubs that shoulder, bowing her head to better catch his eye.]

I don't know if we'll be able to tonight. They've made the whole scene vanish again. I'm...god, I'm sorry. I wish I could have done more.

[Should have gone with someone who had an actual weapon, for one. Gale doesn't count.]

He was a good kid. Stubborn, but... [Well. It feels rude to lie. Kanda was no town darling, but he wasn't bad. Focused, pragmatic. Duty-bound.

And he meant a lot to Lavi. That speaks more than most of her pallid attempts at conversation with him could.]

...independent. And a good friend to you.

[...

He looks down, and then away, clearly struggling.]

He was an asshole. And an idiot. His ear was fucked up and his balance was off, but he -- [I should have healed him.] You know, he never thought it would be him. That he could die. He said no one else here could take him down.

[He was a fucking idiot and a liar too.

He blinks hard again, the sheen in his eye turning watery.]

I won't forgive him.

...I won't deny he could be a little shit.

[Said with a resigned wryness. If they're being honest, they're being honest.]

But he was tough. This game is rigged, Lavi. Whatever happened, it wasn't his fault. And it's not yours either.

[Kanda had already taking a beating on his grand adventure. And frankly speaking, tougher guys than him had gone down already. She wouldn't fancy tangling with Iwatooshi, or Aqua. Not Cloud again.

Her gut twists. Enough of that.]

You don't have to forgive the loss. But you'll have to forgive him. Not now, but someday.

Lavi

week 4: friday

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject